The April Taurus Self-Love Ritual Box Ships 4/15.

Not All Twin Flames Are Meant To Be Together

Love encompasses all, so why is there a need to distinguish one type of love from another? The answer is that in order to spiritually evolve as individuals, we often need to label what we feel and experience. This helps us to better understand what we’re going through on the physical plane.

Please know that all unconditional forms of love are no better or worse than each other. They all bring their own unique gifts and lessons. They are equal.

So where do I begin… As a Pisces, I am the last of the zodiac and as a 9 (numerology), I am also the last in the cycle before the next harmony. I have always had deep feelings that this may be my last incarnation on this earth school. It is quite literally part of my characteristics and charts that I have always questioned life. During my spiritual awakening and journey, I have had always been able to immediately recognize my soulmates, those who I have shared past lives with. My grandma was a soulmate, a few old lovers were soulmates and a few of my friends are my soulmates… But the minute I made eye contact with my twin flame (days before we even said a word to each other), I knew something was different (before I even knew what the hell a “twin flame” was). I ended up doing a lot of research because I couldn’t explain this energetic cord that I felt so strongly. After looking into my feelings, other people's testimonials, research, and stories it was very obvious to me that I had met my twin flame. This was after a year of living together. To be honest its actually really hard for me to share this with you guys. It has been really hard to relate to people or take advice from those who don’t understand what a twin flame is, or the roller coaster of knowing one.

A twin flame is stated to be two halves that makeup one whole, however upon splitting, they become their own soul. When you reach a certain level of consciousness or a higher frequency level, your soul has to split into two in order to come back down into a physical body. This means that there are essentially two of you roaming the earth. Both of you are in a way, half the energy that you originally were. This other half of your energy is your Twin Flame, and when the two of you cross paths or meet it is like you instantly feel whole again.  According to, “twin flames don’t often go through incarnations at the same time. Usually one will incarnate while the other stays and assists from the higher realms. As your soul progresses, the time may come for you to be reunited with your twin flame on the physical plane. This person can be of the same or opposite sex, but spiritually they will encompass the yin or yang essence to complement yours.”

KINDRED SPIRITS –  individuals that resonate at the same level, or frequency, as us.

SOULMATES  – friends of the soul. Spiritually, soulmates usually play a major role in your development. Ex. a sister in a past life can be a lover in this life. Your mom in a past life can be a daughter in this life. 

TWIN FLAMES – are our mirrors.  

So now that that is cleared up, a twin flame is usually a toxic / beautiful / painful / passionate / Tumultuous / transforming relationship.  This is because your twin flame serves to show you everything that needs to be healed within you. This is not to be confused with “love” being painful. Love is not painful. Everything that stands in the way can be, though. If you have a Twin Flame you will meet in every life time that you both incarnate, regardless of your level of consciousness. But, whether the two of you can make it work will depend on your frequency and essentially how much you have learned to love yourself unconditionally.

They reflect back to us our every strength, insecurity, weakness, and shadow element. The purpose of the twin flame relationship is said to help us undergo soul work and become the best version of ourselves possible. I agree with this because my major growth came after my twin — my soul purpose came after my twin. But the issues I have is that among the spiritual community a majority of every post and article, says that all twin flames are MEANT to be together… and this is amazing and is true for many twin flames (I have witnessed this) and I think this is beautiful. Although, I do not think that ALL twin flame relationships follow under this ONE and only category. And this is something important that those who recognize that they are a twin need to understand.

Many articles talk about the cycle of stages that twin flames endure –  that includes a yearning stage, falling in love, outer turmoil, inner purging, runner/chaser, surrender, etc. etc. and then a “reunion” once they completely release their ego and undergo self-love — and this may be true and great, but I do not think that we should categorize all Twin Flame relationships under this type of cycle or category.

My personal experience with my own twin flame has catapulted my growth spiritually, taught me self love, self-worth, and unconditional love. And while all this sounds beautiful it was by far the most painful experience I have ever experienced. Your twin flame could be your greatest dream or your worst nightmare (or both). They will test you, provoke you, betray you and love you fiercely all at once. For many times, one twin is more spiritually evolved than the other and I think it is very toxic for one or any twin to hold onto the idea that “all twin flames are meant to be together” — this idea can lead to one twin to taking advantage of the other or for one twin to hold on to an idea that may be so far from their own personal soul purpose and growth.

A twin flame relationship is bat shit crazy, insanity, painful, heart-ripping (at least mine was)… at first, you are in a love that is so deep in passion, and then the mirrors come out and every single fear, insecurity, weakness, unhealed trauma is brought to the surface. This reason alone is why many twins run, they do not want to face those shadows or mirrors. My twin flame, towards the end of our relationship, emotionally cheated on me many times and I’m sure still carries these same patterns, always searching outside of himself for answers, validation, reassurance — in many ways I did this too — because we are twins, we mirror each other. Which is the biggest lesson of twin flame relationships? Learning self-love and unconditional love, looking at yourself in another human and having compassion, non-judgmental love and UN-CONDITIONAL LOVE — love WITHOUT a condition for those of you who think you know unconditional love, but you put rules and constraints on your partner, well check again folks, THAT IS NOT UNCONDITIONAL.  Loving others, especially your twin, is loving yourself.  Many twin flame relationships become toxic and painful due to this fact alone, because most of the things they dislike about themselves they see in their twin and they aren’t willing to heal or go through the work of healing so they run, or cheat. etc. And its hard to blame them because healing is fucking painful. There is nothing beautiful about healing while you are healing. The beauty comes after when you pat your self on the back and have cleared out all that sticky, energy, pain and hurt and feelings of unworthiness, self-doubt, etc. that may have been built up from childhood and many past lives.  I have spent the last two years on a mission of healing myself and trust me, I still have a long way to go. But the progress could literally bring tears to my eyes.

Layers and layers of pain that needs to be healed and many people don’t want or know how to heal because in order to heal… YOU HAVE TO FEEL AND GO THROUGH ALL THE FEELINGS AND EMOTIONS and pain, that you may have been suppressing, or don’t even know it is there because he has been hidden or trapped so far away. I mean, who wants to feel pain? No one, which is why people numb themselves or use toxic coping/escape mechanisms.  I think Alcohol and weed are a few we can all raise our hands-on. 

One of the reasons that are very first products were crystal bath bombs, was because one of the only ways I knew how to heal (before I got more advance and confidence in my rituals and feminine power) was taking a meditation bath and quite literally crying, for minutes to hours, releasing all this energy and emotion that I had been hiding or suppressing because I was ashamed or didn’t want to face it, but more so because I fucking needed to get it out before I did something crazy, like punch someone in the face. I know that sounds horrible, but in my high school days, I got in so many fights because I had all this built up energy that I didn’t know how to release. For me being able to cry in a bath, was validation that what I was feeling was real. This type of healing is hard, especially for men, because our society has taught us that showing emotion is a weakness when it really is the most powerful strength and the more you suppress it then more out of tune you become and the more angry one can get… the more one does not trust others because they do not trust themselves. 

My twin flame taught me my self-worth, boundaries, and self-love. Still, a journey that I continue to walk and grow on every day, and I am very grateful for that gift he has given me.  I am constantly being tested by my angels and the universe of my boundaries, trust and growth within my self-love and divinity that is me and is in all of us. Every time I think I have overcome something, I am immediately tested on it again, or my twin would pop in my life, or something literally where I would have to say, not today satan, not today (haha, this is a joke). The key though in growth is being able to recognize these signs and test from the universe, your higher self.  There is nothing beautiful or self-loving about letting someone walk all over you because you do not love or put yourself first enough to say No.  Enough is enough. My twin would come and call and crawl back into my life and I would just let him over and over again. What was this teaching me? That I clearly wasn’t putting myself first. The first step to self-love.  These lessons and immense love for myself, has taught me that my twin is not deserving of me. My twin does not deserve to be on the pedestal that I always placed him at, because I wanted so badly to see the good in him, because I so badly wanted to see it in myself. The minute that I finally put myself first, was the minute that I finally chose to let him go, and let me tell you, it was not easy!

Having a toxic drama cycle of allowing him to come in and disrupt my life and energy on his terms, having hope that maybe one day he will heal and we might be able to be together again. As a twin, why would you not want to be with the other part of yourself? The day I chose to not allow him to take up all my energy when he felt he needed to plug back into the source, into divine feminine energy when he was feeling depleted when he needed to remember who he was, be inside me and then run away again from all his problems and inner healing… Was the day I stepped into my soul purpose and self-healing fully.

Me allowing my twin to manipulate me was not me loving myself, this was not me putting myself first. I am sure he did not mean to purposely manipulate me, he was running away from himself. I saw it every time, but I was not honoring myself or my integrity by allowing him to cheat on his current girlfriend with me or to show up to my house when it was ONLY on his terms. What about me? The idea that “all twin flames are meant to be together” subconsciously made me want to help, or have hope that he would remember who he was. Many readers I have talked to told me that I should help him remember, and so all these things (advice from people outside of my own self) allowed my twin to come into my life and quite literally drain me of my energy and my self-worth. I do not think that all twin flames are meant to be together, although if they do end up together I believe that it is one of the highest forms of passionate love and twin flames that do end up together, do have a mission to help elevate love and light on this planet. But I do not think that as a spiritual community that we should not categorize or romanticize this idea for EVERY twin flame, because every twin flame is different, although the circumstances may be the same. Had I let go of this stereotyped fantasy a long time ago I could have saved myself and my heart lots of betrayal and stunts in my growth. Although I am extremely grateful to have my twin flame during this incarnation and thankful for the lessons he has taught me (I would be NOWHERE AS far into my spiritual growth having not met him) I also feel in my heart that we are not meant to be. Many times a soul might want to experience both sides.. ultimately the light and the dark. Without light there can’t be dark, without dark their can’t be light. Maybe some twin's purposes are different and need the lessons of a twin to complete their own personal mission. Not all twins need to carry out missions together and I think this is something that should be shared. So that twins can detach themselves from their twin (side of them) that may be completely lost, behind, damaging or still in their dark.

Hanging on to draining, the twin is hanging on to the sides of your own self that bring you down, that drain your energy and your solar plexus and make you question your self-worth. Which is not the highest form of love on this planet, which ultimately is what the gift of a twin flame relationship is all about. So if having to let go of your twin, gets you to a place of self-discovery, self-love and unconditional love, then the twin flame relationship has served its purpose. There is no reason to hang onto it any longer. You must let it go.  If you can see your twin flame bond as a blessing instead of a curse – it will drag you through all the sludge and gunk that is blocking your internal and eternal bliss and let you shine bright like the diamond you were born to be.